Hey!
So I've been thinking..A lot. And I find it weird, how people you used to know can change so much that it hurts. You might not know until it's to late that you've actually been growing away from that person. You both have your own places you'll go and people you'll see. The most important thing is, once you've been friends you
can't take time back. So before you go and hurt someone, think about, is it worth it? Do you really wanna make someone so unhappy, that they might wanna die? It's worth a tought.
I wish I knew my friends more than I know right now. I wish I could change world, take time back and that I could forget about everything that is shitty. Sometimes I wish, that I could spend more time with different people, and get to know them more. It would be worth time. You never know who you'll end up being in the future, but enjoy your life as long as you can. I mean, don't waste your life. Be you. Don't go with the flow. Just be yourself and be who the heck you want to be. I miss the old me, but I'm happy at the same time, because she is a part of me, and who I'll be in future. I still don't know what I would like to be.
I know a lot of people already know, who they would like to be. I just wanna be me. Not someone who wastes her life on being someone who everyone else wants me to be. It's my world and I build it up for me myself. I wanna have my own favourites, I wanna be the girl who I really am.
And that I am. An amazin
g friend, A good listener, Doodler, A dreamer.
This is me, and I accept who I am. Yes I might have my flaws, but everyone does. No one is perfect. We are only perfect if we accept who we are and accept our flaws. You can change a person, but you can't start making decisions for them. Sure you can show them the way or tell them your opinion but the one who makes the decision, is them.
Sometimes I wish things didn't go as they did. I had this really good friend of mine. She was, at one point of my life, the most important person I cared about. (For a little back story, we were besties for 2 years and bit by bit she told me who to be. She never actually considered my feelings or how I felt inside. She saw me cry, and she saw me smile, but she never understood when I was unhappy and fake smiling. So I kept it in. So we started getting into these small fights all the besties have. Mostly about stupid stuff. But the last fight involved about she thinking I'm gonna steal her boyfriend. As far as I know she spread a lot of bad-mouthing rumors about me. I asked her why was she doing that and she faked it all was good. Then her boyfriend absolutely made my life shitty. I asked hiJUST A NOTE!! I know this next thing you are about to read may sound harsh but I had my reasons for it!!
m why, and he gave me the "other reasons" card. So I decided I would stand up for myself, because I was sick of hearing all the lies, and getting lot's and lot's of hate mail.)
So, we started talking one evening and I asked what's wrong, and she told me that I ruined her life. So I got fed up and I told her this: You should know me. We were best friends. Oops, sorry. WERE. why the hell do you believe what everyone else is telling you, but not me your best friend. Can't you decide for yourself. You don't even care how I feel.You should know, that I'm done with this. I'm done with you acting that way with me. At first you ignore me and then you act like it's all good and happy. Well..It's not. Think about how I feel for once. (The real version is longer and filled with swearing, so I made it more..umm..readable..)
So ever since that we were strangers to each other. I'm actually really sad that things turned out to be like this. But I'm also not. I'm happy too. The hate mail stopped soon after, and some of them said sorry. I know it's not good, but it's better this way. Sure it hurts but I'll get through it. But there are things I should clarify. There still are rumors and there still are some fake stories out there so I told this story IN MY PERSPECTIVE. Not hers. So I hope you'll get it. :)
I know there are some people out there who have had a similar situation, and I tell you, it may be hard at first, but you'll get over it soon. Friends come and go. Only a real friend would stick with you through everything, like glue. I don't hate anyone for what happened to me. I just don't. Because it's useless. Anger will block out every other emotion that you may have inside you. And word "hate" is a strong word. Well, this is pretty much all I had to write about today. Hope ya'all doing Ok. So, I want to ask you guys something..Have you had any bad experience with friends?
I hope this gave you something to think about,
With lot's of love,
Your friend,
Minzy.
P.S. This post came out like.."Baked like and f-ing cake." (Who get's the reference?? :DD)
So I've been thinking..A lot. And I find it weird, how people you used to know can change so much that it hurts. You might not know until it's to late that you've actually been growing away from that person. You both have your own places you'll go and people you'll see. The most important thing is, once you've been friends you
can't take time back. So before you go and hurt someone, think about, is it worth it? Do you really wanna make someone so unhappy, that they might wanna die? It's worth a tought.
I wish I knew my friends more than I know right now. I wish I could change world, take time back and that I could forget about everything that is shitty. Sometimes I wish, that I could spend more time with different people, and get to know them more. It would be worth time. You never know who you'll end up being in the future, but enjoy your life as long as you can. I mean, don't waste your life. Be you. Don't go with the flow. Just be yourself and be who the heck you want to be. I miss the old me, but I'm happy at the same time, because she is a part of me, and who I'll be in future. I still don't know what I would like to be.
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| Never let anyone change you! <3 |
And that I am. An amazin
g friend, A good listener, Doodler, A dreamer.
This is me, and I accept who I am. Yes I might have my flaws, but everyone does. No one is perfect. We are only perfect if we accept who we are and accept our flaws. You can change a person, but you can't start making decisions for them. Sure you can show them the way or tell them your opinion but the one who makes the decision, is them.
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| Smile if you want to, Cry if you want to. Just be you. |
m why, and he gave me the "other reasons" card. So I decided I would stand up for myself, because I was sick of hearing all the lies, and getting lot's and lot's of hate mail.)
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| Something inspirational. |
So ever since that we were strangers to each other. I'm actually really sad that things turned out to be like this. But I'm also not. I'm happy too. The hate mail stopped soon after, and some of them said sorry. I know it's not good, but it's better this way. Sure it hurts but I'll get through it. But there are things I should clarify. There still are rumors and there still are some fake stories out there so I told this story IN MY PERSPECTIVE. Not hers. So I hope you'll get it. :)
I hope this gave you something to think about,
With lot's of love,
Your friend,
Minzy.
P.S. This post came out like.."Baked like and f-ing cake." (Who get's the reference?? :DD)
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