Dance baby DANCE!

Hey!
So this is
something I really wanted to tell everyone about. So please do read it!! <3 Love you a lot. Talk to ya by the end of this story.

Dancing has made me more confident!

Through years, dance has meant a lot of different things for me. At first it meant almost nothing, I mean it was just music. Nothing special. Whether I like it or not now it means a lot more.

When I first started dancing it was to express my emotions. That was at the time my classmates started bullying me. I was a little girl (about 8-9 years old) and I was browsing through this website called youtube. Then I saw this older girl on the picture that lead to another video and it said something about hip hop dance. That was when I found my idol Minzy. She was so cool and soon after seeing the first video I got addicted to her dance moves and her movements. I loved her the most. I had never been so happy in my life. She was the reason I started my dancing and was the reason to my dancing addiction. I really just started imitating what she was doing on my screen.
Soon after I saw a movie called "Step up 1" I don't remember it exactly but I remember all those dance scenes that I really got into. I soon forgot about Minzy, but I never actually forgot her. She has been in my mind from time to time in my life.

Dance improved the way I think!

So when I was about 9-10 years old I really got more into dancing. I watched all the dance movies I could find at the time and tried to remember everything. I started imitating more and more and soon enough it was almost as good as their movements. I started watching and searching more and more videos on youtube and Dancing meant to me something to express my feelings through. I was bullied at school, I was in depression and all I couldn't do was to tell them to stop it. By that time I was addicted more and more to dance.

So, the bulling went on and I did nothing else than express my feelings through
my dance and the music. I remember all those days when I came home crying and trying so hard to cheer myself up through dancing til I dropped. I was in a bit depression and I cried almost everyday.  That was when I got really serious about my dance and I was never okay with my half-made moves or movements. I was not myself.

Dance is something I love doing,
and it's something I never want to give
up on.

So I started brainstorming, what if I tried to imagine something while I'm dancing. So I tried it and it worked!
At first I imagined a stage, in front of a big audience, and everyone cheering me on, my classmates being red from faces standing next to me. I was really happy
and I could smile after a long, long time. Every time I looked into mirror I saw that imagination and smiled. I don't know why but all those classmates they had their faces of the present but personality of an first grader I knew them once as. It started to get really fun and I stopped being so hash on myself and told it's okay to take time and relax while dancing.
That was when the meaning of dancing changed for me. It meant having fun, while being surrounded by the things you love, but being hash when you needed to be.

Dance helped me to realise
something important that
is always beside me.

So by the time I was 11-12 My classmates learned out that I danced. So every time I put my headphones on and started dancing on my own I tried to do the movements I had remembered from the day. It didn't work out so well and I stopped doing that soon after. But thanks to doing that I learned a lot of more moves like: waves and flutters exc.
So at some point I only listened to nightcore and transes and such kind of music. (If you don't know what nightcore is it's a regular song that is edited. The voice is made higher and beat is faster than on normal songs.)
So I did the best I could to keep up with the beat and perfect my moves by doing so. I actually kept my pace and I did really well on keeping up, but my moves weren't enough. That was what I tought.

So, Dance got yet another meaning to me: Be fast, sharp and perfect.

Thanks to dance I've been able to make more friends.

Thanks to dance, I've made new dreams
And I'll do anything to reach them!

Last year, I got really into Kpop and Jpop. The dances they had with the music videos were perfect and I tried to learn them on my own. I did all I could. Soon I could dance after foreign words I knew no meaning to but I learned the languages fast and I know what the songs mean. By understanding the words I started doing more what the lyrics said.

I focused on it and I couldn't see the whole picture. The dance started to lose meaning to me. That was until I remembered myself something I learned from the past 6 years of dancing. Keep your dance clean and easy, but hold it spicy and new. I went along with those rules and learned more and more as much as I could.

A little push can turn into something
you could have never dreamed of.

By the end of last year my mom introduced to a dance group called: "Black and brownie". She told me she was sorry that she never had thought about me going to a dance school. She really wanted me to be more eager on playing violin and school works so she was thinking that maybe it's going to be like a seasonal thing that I wouldn't do after a year or two. I did end my music school tho, and I'm on my final year of school. She also told me that she was okay with me going to that dance school if I ended my music school. I did it and I got to go to that dancing school. My heart was racing and jumping when I finally got to go to a dancing school that is freestyling dance, like me.

Dance can sometimes be the
confidence boost you'll need.

The first lesson I had was a Newstyle one and I got really good feedback from my first lesson and I was happy about it. I never thought that a girl like me who has freestyled like 6-7 years would get so much positive feedback on my dancing. Every bad day that I had had was gone after being in one room filled with dancers who made you laugh and were all so kind. I was amazed that no matter how bad my day had been they could make me forget all of that through one song/dance/movement or word. So I started going to there regularly.

Though I started going there I never stopped dance trainings I did at home. They were as important as always. I started perfecting my movements and moves.

This year, I went to there again. Black and brownie and into newstyle. Today my teacher asked what we are dancing for. I thought about it and I didn't know my answer. Once I dreamed of dancing on the broadway, and also being me through a dance that fits my emotions, also meeting my idol Minzy and battling her to a dance-off. But to find an answer I had to go deep down to the memories of an little girl who just found something that could someday mean everything to her.

Though life can be sometimes hash
You have to keep your head up and be yourself.

I know what I'm dancing for! I started dancing through meeting this girl on youtube, and without knowing it I took the same nickname as her. I dance for to say thank you to her and it would mean all the world if I could meet her. I dance for every one of my friends who has had a bad memory, I dance for being the real me, the me who I really am.

The future is never clear.

He also asked us what are our plans of the future. If I can I really want to say thank you to Minzy my idol, who showed me dance, who got me into dancing, who gave me the push to be confident and try new things. I want to be like her, and hope that one day I could be that older girl showing a little girl something amazing and I want to be the one to give her the push of being who she really wants to be.

I never stopped doing something that was important to me. And that matters a lot. There were times I wanted to give up or die, but I got myself together and danced my emotions. All those unwanted feelings and memories went passing by trough every second in the song.

Don't give up on something you love! <3

I think that if you like something and it's important to you, never let it go or pass you by. Those little things matter more then anything else.

I hope you liked this story,
Lot's of love,
Minzy

P.S. This was a lot more than I expected it to be. I did want to write more about it, but I think it might get a little too boring. So I hope you liked it. <3